dissapointments?

when it comes to me dissapointing someone.
it really hits me.
coz i dont lyk to be dissapointed by anyone.

i dissapointed my physics teacher.
i told her i will finish my homework.
i did.
but it had no equations and silly jalan kerja.
i told her i dont understand.
she said i should've ask her or my fwens.
the problem is that what if my fwens dont understand too?
i donno who to ask.
i ended up crying in front of her as she threatened me.
the threat : dont finish ur homework, i will photocopy ur work and give it to the pentadbir and ur parents.

hmm.
im lucky.
coz tommorrow i will be having tuition.
now i can make sure i will understand.
thanks to mama.
i love her so much.

i may have dissapointed a lot of people.
but i will try my best to make them proud of me again.
or maybe just to be happy.
because i now noe how it feels.

p/s: listen to an old song
arie wibowo - singkong dan keju
i think its cute!
hahaha!

how sad!

so sad!
my bro and sis are going back to aussie.
wish i could send em'
well,
at least i could call.

kakak helped me out with my problems.
what i feel in school.
how to suceed.
how to just live with it.
and how to be strong.
she was lyk mama + papa (sort of)
but she helped a lot.

abang helped me too.
he gave me support.
he told me i needed it.
he told me it's useful.

all these things are very meaningful in my life.
how i proceed on for my future.
sometimes i get too lalai
and sometimes i regret too much.
the thing is that there's no time to regret.
forget the past and move on.

sometimes the past may make u feel sad
it will last for along time.
i noe how this feels.
coz i had one.
couldnt talk bout it my blog.
i didnt make dis blog to memburukkan org.
so lets just leave the past and move on.

tommorow there will be no school after recess.
acara larian and tarik tali will be held.
weee!
i really hope emerald can win.
but somehow i think this year's cheerleading squads sucks.
STOP!
everytime we come for practice, the form 5s will be disscussing.
TEACH US NEW STEPS LA BABE!
no point of us coming
and end up practicng the same thing all over again n again.

sish.
dat's what i think.
next year's cheer will not be like this.
as i am chaptain
practices will be efficient.
and new steps and new songs!

ready for an extra day!

oh yeah!
i finished the book!
SWEET!!!!

today is the 28th.
and tommorrow will be another memoreable day!
sigh'

im coming home this saturday
ive got theraphy
and i'm taking tuition
coz my physics sucks!

i wonder how will i do in my exams.
i have to read sejarah
do nota agama
and also practice chemistry and addmaths.

22nd of march will be the day of my school spoarts day.
and 2 days before that,
those who r going to k. kinabalu will have a trip to
"i-donno-what-the-hell-is-its-name"
sumwhere near cameron highlands
just to bring up our stamina.
i think we have to daki a hill there
sigh'
just wait and see

sukantara!

today
wat a great achievement!
i got a 5 for sukantara.
yeay me!
never before in my life i got more than 3!
aha! oo yeah!
hahaha.

well i think things are getting better!
im feeling more happy now.
things are more organised.
and trying to improve.

right now i read this book by rachel gibson
entittled : daisy's back in town
try read it.

cant wait to get stereo pop 2!

ouh dear!

what a horrible week!
god! i donno what's gonna happen to me.
ive been very lazy.
i overslept.
i didnt finish my homework.
i havent finish studying n exam's are next week!

i hate it!
whats happening to me!

and guess what.
i lost my mp3 dis morning!
toyol stold it.
coz noone's gonna mengaku.
ish!

why the hell would anyone want my mp3?
u wouldnt even listen to my songs.
u don't even noe the bands!
and u dont even understand de language of the lyrics!
ughhhhhh!

well, thnks to TE'EN!
i now have a discman with one sided earphones.
i guess i will be one ear deaf den...

ouh and try to listen to death note ost!

they rock!

abc's of ex-girlfrinds

A
is for Arteries.
You know, the things that your ex-girlfriend ripped out because she really didn't care for you you twit she was only after your money and could have given a shit about you.

B
is for Bitter. Who, me?? No way. I really hope things between them do work out. I hope they get married and have 2 children that are little devils and her hips get huge and his eyebrows finally grow completely together and they get fat and old together and then DIE!!

C
is for Call ya later.She won't. She never has before.

D
is for Dumped. Does D need to be explained?

E
is for Eating like a pig. Remember when you took her out and she said "I'm not hungry" so you figured you could take her to a nice place because you were able to afford a nice meal at this fine restaurant. Then she ate more than your Uncle Roy (you remember Uncle Roy the one with the mustard stains on everything). So you flip the bill and are broke for the next two weeks and she wonders why you were unable to call her that week and go see movies.

F
is for Friends. That is what she just wants to be. As if you can even stand to look at her.

G
is for Gun. And yes there is a waiting period.

H
is for Horny. Remember when she looked nice and even had a personality? Well, you figure it out.

I
stands for I still hate her. Odds are I always will, unless she calls me and offers me favors.

J
stands for Jim. This is her new boyfriend. Doesn't Jim have a nice car ? Doesn't Jim have a good job? Why does Jim want to date her? I think Jim could do much better. I hate Jim. Jim is my mortal enemy.

K
stands for Kill.

L
is for Love. It's a great euphoric feeling that exists between two people and is shared upon by both parties.

L
is also for Lunatic. Lunatics are crazy. Lunatics are the last people that actually believe in love.

M
stands for Mephistophiles. That is who she worked for.

N
stands for Necropheliac. She didn't move very much, did she?

O
is for On top. When on top she has another O word.

P
is for Pill. She said she was on it. She lied. She is now sueing you for a few hundred bucks a month.

Q
is for Quitter. She couldn't last.

R
is for Rich little Bitch. She bought my love but I paid for it.

S
stands for Suffer. That's what she made me do.

T
is for torture. Torture is what she did. She tortured you with the truth. She also tortured you with lies.

U
is for Understatement. Saying you hate that bitch is an understatement.

V
is for Voluptuous. That is the primamry reason you were dating her in the first place.

W
stands for Whine. She was a pro at this.

X
is for Xylophone. Because X is always for xylophone.

Y
stands for You suck! Remember when she yelled that at you.

Z
stands for ZIPPER. This is what you got your hair stuck in while trying to get dressed too quickly while she yelled "QUICK! They're home!"

.
stands for period. Which is a couple of weeks late, because she lied to you about taking what P stands for. It also means you won't get any for a week.

friends forever

lets go back to the past
where we use to laugh
making ourselves happy
together

lets go back to the past
where we use to play
everywhere we can
together

lets go back to the past
where we use to sing
though the lyrics were wrong
we were just having fun
together

lets go back to the past
where we use to dance
moving left and right
to the beat and the rhythm
together

there is just soo much in the past
its very dull without u
coz u know
we cant have fun without each other

lets go back to the past
where we do things together
forever and always

what matters now?

It has gotten to my head.
Permeates the path I tread.
But I tread,
I'm moving on in a new and happy song.


I can sing about the night,
how my tunnel without light
Led me to the other side
where the sky is blue.

Right here with you
is right where I belong.
I lose my mind
if I can't see or hear you.

Without you
there's nothing in this life
That would make life
worth living for.

I can't bare the thought
of you not there;
I can't fight
what I feel anymore.

ask for my hand
you know I'll give it
and if you're cold
I give you warmth
and I don't care
if it's unfair

'cause I would sacrifice myself
now that I know
the only thing that matters
is us

not a tragic kingdom

black jackets
red hearts
couldn't see it
but couldn't deny it

till tragic comes
the kingdom calms
i come to you
to be in your arms

tie the knot right
make sure it wont break
hold my hand tite
as long as we live

as princess and prince
we stay in a kingdom
of love and kindness
we shall rule

Creepy Stellar

i feel lyk a creep



im out of place



i dont belong here



im a weirdo






i wish i was bulletproff



then i can go pooooff



into the deep dark sky



the glittering blackness






then i can come back



lyk the meteor's hitting



i shoot here and there



making the world stare






coz now im shooting star



im a stellar...