anak derhaka!

pagi yg gelap
sgt susah nk terang

the whole morning i have been crying crying and crying.
aku anak derhaka.
aku anak derhaka.
aku anak derhaka.

this morning i felt like i have no more hope to move on.
i cannot do this.
i donno how.
help!

i need support.
i dont think i have any support.
i might as well just fall down and die.

dis is what i have done:

• i broke up with farid
• i broke a major skool rule
• and i broke my parents trust

in order to repair that. dis is what i have done

• buat surat mohon maaf kepada pk hem dan kp
• berjanji untuk berubah.
• try not to hurt my parents again.

dat's all i have done.

i slept at 2 morning
woke up at 6.20.
and was only ceria at agama islam's class
but i cried when ustzah noriz talked bout ibu mengandung.
she didnt realize i cried.

den after that i wanted to see ustazah to hand in the letter.
but i failed as she was not in.
den i assumed that i would be able to see her after skool.
and i failed again.

fail fail fail.
is that what i can only do?

i was doing my bm home work at my dorm when i realize.
i wanna make a big change in my life.
instead of being a stupid person who only knows how to fail.
i wanna try to suceed!

aku teringin jadi budak pandai.
jom sha2 kite jadi budak pandai.
kita rajin kan diri same2 k!

right now i only feel the support from sha2
what can i do.
i can only buck up to get what i want.

but in order to get what i want
i will have to face the music.
not the soft music.
but the heavy hardcore music.

wish me luck in suceeding!
tq!